It’s been long since I have written
something, and most of its blame should go to the fact that it’s been long
since I have written something. Dominoes, you see! You take your stance amongst
them, admiring their beauty, unaware about the fact that they might collapse
any moment, and then, you are amidst a fall you cannot outrun! There’s a moment
for everything, and that moment is every moment that we live, laugh, talk,
bitch, crawl, creep and everything else; only we fail to realize that
realizations is what we are looking for. We always believe we are special, we
are taught to look out for the miracles and the diminished facts, because
anything banal is more than banal for us. Why go after, after what everyone is
going!
This is one of those posts, like those
pages in a chronicle where I am supposed to vent things out; things that have
been inside for now like more than 6 months. This in an outburst! The next time
someone tells you that don’t work your brains out the times when you are angry
or sad, slap them the tightest ever, right across their face, because those are
the only moments when you are you, and not the pretender whose live you live
otherwise.
Today I write this in my angst, an angst
budded through inconsolable love that I had for something, burning right
through days and nights. Today I scrabble this in my angst, an angst conceived
through the fact that when given a chance of choosing between happiness and
cruelty arranged and set up well masochism, people go for the latter one. Today
I jot my angst out in angst, an angst baked in a womb, a womb of waiting for
the calling to come, for things to happen after all of the begging, pleading,
threats and requests. Today I write this to give up my angst, an angst which
now has got me through the thoughts that it all shall work out to my peace and
love. Today I stand devoid of my angst, an angst that got me back to my words
after 7 long months. Today I stand happy that it never worked out! And it is
today that a beacon has started shinning upon me, something that I hope will
keep me very close to my words, now, then and henceforth, for the long, long
time!
