Monday, 22 August 2011

Fast unto death, Justified?

Tens, hundreds, thousands,  millions .  Traders, employers, employees, entrepreneurs, men, woman, children.  In fact , and short, everyone. Well the last week has seen India becoming a circus for God knows why and what reasons. Probably, would even he know? Processions ,   demonstrations,  slogans, marches, candle light marches, caps, and what not. Anna Hazare, the second Gandhi, the new national hero, he has taken our country by storm indeed, and that too in style. Bows to him for that.

                Last night while I was sitting and thinking about what should my next venture be, I saw Ajjtak news flash, “Anna has lost 5 kilos of weight in a week of Annshan”. Somewhere I read a slogan, “Ye Anna nahi andhi hai, Desh ka naya Gandhi hai.

                LOKPAAL BILL. Something that has been tearing apart the UPA  government, something that assures the people of India that it is time now. None would be spared from Punishment, not even the Prime minister. LokPaal Bill, something that talks about being the antidote for the biggest parasite thriving on our nation, corruption, something that promises our nation, us, our future generations, a better place to live. A thought, amazing one . Refreshing, replenishing, assurance of  a rising era.

                 It started a week before. Seeing no potential outcome for the fast that he had undertaken a few months back, Anna Hazare  decided that it was do or die for him now, now or never, never ever in future he is going to get another chance after this. And he gave a call, openly to each and every citizen of India to join him for his fast unto death, at Delhi. Citizens, for whom, the name had already had become household, poured in all their support too. Within minutes, he was behind bars,. And then started the so called August Kranti, the revolution, the rebellion, that even today is continuing, even at this hour. . But with a non violent aspect.           

                Ministers, leaders, big , small, all of them rushed to the Tihar jail, in  out, again in, again out. Just so as to convince the man to give up, to assure him his demands would be fulfilled, to tell him that his stipulations were primary concern that were to be undertaken soon. Even inside the jail he gatherd supporters, And when two days back, he was released, the man power behind him increased exponentially. Respect, utter respect for this guy, who’s doing this just for the future generation, who has no family to be selfish for, he has no greed behind this. All this just for the sake of us . But more or less, some where his paths, they don’t seem  right to me. Yet again, I am no one to judge, but as they say, I have the right to expression.

                No harm in all the marches and all, but how many of them even know what they are fighting for. An extraordinary factor is that the whole activity has been carried out with out troubling the people, with out jamming the roads, and with out shops being destroyed, or lit with fire (UK connection). And even after so much efforts, I would not be surprised if the bill would be passed. But what would surprise me would be the same people, who stand with it, would turn against it once it is put into practice.

                For us everything is about convenience, even bribing, . We bribe a policeman so that we don’t have a case charged up against us. We bribe an official so that one dosen’t have to stand in queues or run after the same place, for one and the same reason again and again.

                 Now coming to the core issue.  The issue of passing the bill by August 30 is utter non sense. If he has enough knowledge about the bill, then he should have more than enough information about how our Indian parliament system works. I mean it seriously takes  months to pass a biull even if both the houses and the President and the Prime Minister already agree upon it. So if he talks about passiong the bill by August 30, day dreaming is what I can say. And coming to the second aspect, more moral one though. Every one of us, does favour bribing, at some or the other level. And as I said, its for our convenience itself. The day the bill is passed, it is lost . The police man , whom we used to settle by 100 bucks, would drag us to court and ask us to settle things by paying 1400 more. No doubt the country would start cleaning up all its filth, but it would be worth watching to see even if half of the people who support it now, even know about it, and even if they know, would support it then. Cause they always say, Its easier said than done.  And talking about India, where even the government censes is in accurate, how the hell is the bill going to be evenly active. Can any one answer that. They tell us only 1411 tigers left, and when  we start the campaign about saving them, they tell is they are not sure about it. Some one to the rescue please.

                And at last but not the least. What if inspired by this act of heroism, someone stands up tomorrow, proclaiming fast unto death, for another reason, for another amendment may be, and seeing him again some one stands up for some other need of self or society. India is a democratic country, it is known for it, the only thing that is sustaining since ages. We don’t want to be destroyed too.  It should not be upto some individual who has a fan following base to decide things. I wonder what would happen if SRK starts a fast asking for complete tax exemption, considering the fan following he has.

                I am in favour of the bill being passed. But then the means should be something that makes sense. I do understand it for a noble cause, but it ain’t be in such a way that it makes a mess out of our system, and be set up as a bad example of our youth.

                Love for India.!!!!

Friday, 19 August 2011

Coins



They trade you , like you belong to them
            Think that they own,….
Nothing matters, wrong or right,
            Right or wrong , cause they don’t care

They want to take with, all this treasure, this filth,
            Set up their tombstones on coins..
Coins, which buy, Coins that sell…
            Coins my friend would put you through hell

Stringed puppets, they preside over
            Naïve, we are, we don’t even know
 Trap is set, the moment we are born..
            Life long at their mercy then..

Put up by us , to the power, to the throne.
            Power that turns them Blind.
Turn to leaches, they fuck up our lives.
            Born equal, But unequal we perish..


They want to take with, all this treasure, this filth,
            Set up their tombstones on coins..
Coins, which buy, Coins that sell…
            Coins my friend would put you through hell

Monday, 15 August 2011

SMOKES



We blow it up, we smoke ’em  up,
                               White ecstasy I say
The  fire, at its far end
                               Lays to rest, or soul inside


Weed we live for, rather it makes us live
                               We crush em up, we roll em up
Then the rings , that we make up
                                We show the world the artist inside

We sing, we dance, we play, we act
                                No one but just ourselves for we.
None to heed, None to worry..
                                Kings of our Kingdom we be

High on our minds, High on our dreams.
                                Dreams that seemed impossible befire..
We live and feel, feel and live
                                 Those moments, but the moments ain’t true though.

Pavements and streets and stairs we sit
                                 Every night, it’s a different light

To this world we are just a bunch of morons.
                                  Poor souls they are, they don’t even know.                           

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

The door that closed

 Part 1
Emily lay there,, on the soft Double cot bed of hers.. The Sheets were a mess…. And so were the bed spreads… The white cushions  were stained,, RED .. By  blood probably or was it?… Over head.. she could see the lamp glowing with all its might…. And its light was so blinding… she couldn’t really guess what was going on.. where was she!?..... why was she there,…. What was going to happen next… All These questions .. were running though her mind!!!...As a guy chasing the girl of his dreams!! The room was white,,, off white though at all those artistic arches, ornamental ceilings  and enhancing art works inspired by 18th century India.

  Then suddenly something happened,, Like an oasis inside a desert, Like a deafening blast in silence,,, Like a sudden gift of vision to a guy who has been blind all his life,,, Emily heard the door crack open.. and saw a figure, she thought would be her savior,,,,, Savior.. She had decided and told herself that it had to be some one who had come to help her.. to rescue her.. to take her away from this place… Cause right from the moment she had her eyes opened..  She was feeling weird…!!! Unsafe.. Insecure… the closed door kind off gave her a bad feeling from the first instance.. It seemed like the door,, It was slammed shut. Never ever going to be opened back for her, again.
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Tall , well built was the man who stood before her eyes,, And it was all she could make out of the haze… The silhouette of the figure that stood before her … Chiseled body… Muscular arms.. legs. Brawny bosom. .. and a bald head… She really prayed and wished that it was him!!... After all these few moments of terror,, of the fear of unknown… the figure, she thought,, had ought to be friendly…


And then the man leaned forward… The mere touch of him made Emily tremble….. But it felt soothing as he lifted her!!!,, Now walking though the door.. her heart had stopped racing.. She knew who it was.. That touch.. the feeling.. she can never forget it.. The arms she was in.. Was one of the fewest places where she would find peace ,care and ,armor It was John… Her John…… As the walked out of the door.. he looked at her.. and smiled.. She smiled back.. But there were many more things hidden in her smile…. Happiness, relief and most importantly ,love, for him,,,, She couldn’t yet make out where was she…. But the fact that John was there… gave her a fairy tale like tingle .. a prince who always comes to rescue the troubled princes.. The warrior who’s always there too protect the girl!!!.

They walked down the stairs.. went out through the main door.. to the courtyard!,,, where he out Emily down.. She didn’t want to get down!!!,,But she was more concerned about the John.. Being a scientist had its own pros and cons!!!! They climbed into his car,, and the drive began.. a drive she didn’t knew from where or where it  would end!!!!!!!

John Smith was a scientist at Newtown Research Facility!!,,,,, Born poor,, abandoned.. brought up at a local orphanage  in London.. Ambitious,,, that is and is only the word that can be used to showcase what he used to be from childhood. Being a doctor, he had that dream in him.. cause the most inspirational man in his life.. Ref Father Jacob Marshall was one. But he wanted to be a doctor with difference!,,, And all of it led him to being one of the world’s most famous medical scientist.. But One thing that no one knew was his desire to be rich.. by hook or by crook.. something that gave him a lethal  edge over all his good qualities!!!!!!


And this famous persona him itself  had set up his meeting with Emily.. It was more of a love at first sight for Emily. She had fallen for the man.. the moment they were introduced at the new year eve’s party at a friend’s….. The Day now exits for her as more of an anniversary celebration rather than a new year’s eve.

But for john.. he looked at her as his jackpot.. It seemed to him as if she was the reward.. A reward he was being endowed with  for all those hard work he had put in.. Everything, but riches. He had in his life.. And in Emily he saw that. Money and wealth,. Some of the few things that can drive a man crazy.. It was all as quick as lighting since that day.. their first date was the very next day.. and the courtship carried on for almost 4 months!!,, And then the couple tied the knot.. a They soon had a baby boy too.. Max… Life was like the exact image EMILY had in her mind.. Every time they made love…!! She would feel more close to him.. She would feel complete.. She felt like the luckiest woman alive on earth,,,,

On the contrary,, for john it was all part of the big master plan he had in his mind.. The marriage ,all fake …. The kid was all but a social security symbol , so that no one ever would doubt him in his plans… Every time they made love. John felt like he was punishing a slave.. Day in and day out, he acted,, in front of his colleagues,, society and, and most importantly Emily,,,,, But inside the fire would always be burning…. The desire.. the plan.. he was just waiting for the day… The day he would put the wheels into motion... and get what he always he had deserved.. but never got, but believed Emily was the chance God gave him to get his rights..

 Part 2


This side of John Smith .. no one ever knew about it… He appeared so different to the outside world… that the people close to him won’t  even believe that he had a evil side,, full of revenge,, anger and frustrations.. Even if it was the pope himself claming any such thing….
During His studies and research the one thing that fascinated him was dreams… The power they contained,,, He had understood the fact that if one pursues the dreams, with his heart, he would achieve it,,, no mater how many or how big the obstacles may be.. And the proof for the matter fact.. he saw in himself… He was famous,,, and an doc… More of a scientist kind.. as he always wanted.. And so when it came to being rich.. He was sure about the fact that ,, as always in his life dreams are going to play an important role here too.. But this time. He didn’t want it to be something that happens during the sleep.. a mere activity.. performed by every living soul.. Not just anything that’s just inspirational.. He wanted it to be the key!,, HE wanted Dreams to be the hero of His self cooked story!,,, Apparently  he was obsessed with dreams!!,,,


Some where he had read that people can be influenced in dreams!,, You can make people do what you want them to do,,, You can  control them!,,,, All you need is to find a way to enter their dreams.. or make them enter yours!!!,,, Hypnotism was always a second choice for him,, Much of a plan B,,, cause for John.. Things had to be different!!,, he wanted to invent his own some way,, Some thing that would never be detected , completely fool proof.. And this mere thought gave him the inspirations!.. The thought laid the foundation… It buried the seeds… whose crops he hoped to devour..

Uncomparable reading, research, experiments, and finally he came up with a device.. HALLUCINATOR,,, He believed he could enter the dreams of people through it!... HE had dedicated his precious life to come up with such a device!!!! The device,helped the user to enter the dreams of whomsoever he wanted to, create his on set up.. and make the target dance according to the tunes of the pied piper,,, …….
The first Experiment, his secretary, Laila McDonald… He drugged her coffee.. and she was down and out for hours.. After the whole set up… creating his own world in her dreams , invited her into it.. He was always fascinated by how much she loved her boy friend, Ryan Mattews.. The only two persons she trusted was her dad Robert McDonald and her love.. But sadly Mr. McDonald was already enjoying his holiday up in heavens .

In her world, he took her to the McDonald mansion.. The old man was lying on his death bed .. Desperate to get out a secret out from his heart,,, to his baby… All he said was,” Princess, Ryan’s cheating on you.. He’s fooling around.. He would betray you any moment he wants” ..

Next day headlines of the newspapers read. : “Women Kills her boyfriend and commits suicide..”
Yeah.. The Hallucinator was a success now..


Since that day,,, John planned on ways to plant the worm inside Emily,… Ways , on how he could get her killed by herself,,, and yet walk away unquestioned.. with dignity within the society.. and most importantly with all her wealth,, Money, greed. Every bit of goodness in him was sucked by those two things!, Like an infant sucks out milk when the mother feeds.. till the last drop…
And then on the D day. John did the same with Emily as he had did with Laila.. Few Sleeping pills to a glass of milk. And she was all there for him to execute his mission………….


When In dreams You Never know from where you arrive .. how you come or end up.
where was she!..... why was she there,…. What was going to happen next… All These questions .. were running though her mind!!!.

She was in a dream. She was there cause John had set her up there….


John very well knew that one thing that EMliy cant with stand is guilt.. So at the end of their drive. John took her to a drive in cinema…  It played a scene.. Young Emily and her brother. She pushing him into the pool.. and laughing as she saw him drown… Sitting next to him.. Emily had tear drops in her eyes.. And John had a wicked smile on his face.. He knew he had won….

The worm had been planted…………

First thing Emily did after waking up the next morning was grab a bottle of whiskey,, and the keys to her car… The whiskey to withstand the guilt she had contained in her self. The thought.. that she had killed her Little, own brother… Made her think she did not have any right to live,,,, She furiously drove her car though the alleys.. footpaths… and then a Bus…

A newspaper write next day: “Drinking and driving.. Woman gets killed”:

And with Emily’s death being clear to the world as an accident. John had won.. HE had succeed in wat he had planned.. He considered this as his biggest prize.. Grandest acclamation.. Much, much ,Much more than the million dollar inheritance from Emily’s properties.. and the other millions he was going to make out of the Insurance policies…..

And as always he knew .. Dreams were his keys to success..

Epilogue

“And the first prize goes to Miss Betty Paul”, announced the Judge… As the 16 year old made her way to the stage to collect her Prize for the sma;; story she had submitted.. The crowd could not help but to stand up and clap for the child genius,,, But there was one person who was smiling.. But it was more of a wicked one.. It was Betty’s elder sister Paula,,, Just like any other day with pen and paper.. and she had made Betty a over night genius.. .. And inside.. She was waiting for the day her book got released.. and the day she would be waving to much larger crowd than this.

Dreams here too ….

Monday, 8 August 2011

MUmbai Diaries


                          Realizations, they come when you expect them the least. Always, I wondered, what’s the point about going to far off places, about new experiences, and all those artists writing about them. For I always thought , the best way was to just sit and scribble, and let your heart out. But then the weekend, Mumbai, endowed me with whole new aspect of extravaganza, of what writing can be.

                           Hope, the sole reason, the pillar on which half, no more than half. No rather the whole world survives. For some its about studies, to others its about money, and to a special class of people, perhaps the most prevailing and the most prominent ones, hope is all about living another day, rather passing, SURVIVING .      

                        Mumbai, Bombay, the theater of dreams, where the world’s most stunning turn of events happens. From rags to riches and , and ,and  down the hill like an avalanche too. Millions of people, with their billions of dreams, ride down to this city, with their HOPE, of making it grand.

                        I was always habituated to hear how happening the city was, how you could enjoy your life to fullest on your small trips and et cetera et cetera. Indeed all the fun part I hear is true, it is supposed to be true after all It is Mumbai. But seems like all of them haven’t yet seen the other, more darker side of it.

                        Let me make it more simple in case you are wondering where I am heading to. have you ever bothered, sitting in those local carriages, to look at the guy, dressed in formals, trying to sell you wallets, the ones which have a NIKE or REEBOK symbol over them, for just 15 rupees, His face remains the same always, even when he’s proclaiming his arrival, plain, emotion less. And then when he reaches till the last seat, and sees no chance of landing a deal, there goes his hand into his bag. One by one, he pulls out, one by one, all the remaining wallets. Black, brown, again black and brown. This goes on until the last one has been singled out. And then, clutching them, in between his fingers, he stares them, but still, the eyes are pale, the face is plain, devoid of any colors. Still I am wondering and trying  to figure out, what was he thinking, how much can he sell so that he can fill his own.

                        And I guess, You wouldn’t even would have noticed all those traders, at Linking road, who use all those modus operandi, doesn’t matter f it’s the fake accent to attract the African tourists, their not-so-dance-like dance moves, or their typical Indian style announcements of sale. There was this market, full of muslim traders, who even in this race with the life situation were keeping alive their tradition of Roza. I recall  Nizam, age 19, who was at one of those shops. You must all know, shopping with out bargaining is impossible. And while I was trying him to go down with the prices, he was requesting me to at least be with the market price. He says,”Is mein to mera kya hoga bhai. 1400 mahine ka bhada hai dukan ka, thoda bahut mujhe bhi kamana hai. Tumhe itne mein dunga to main kya khaunga. Aur upar se abhi to Ramzzan hai, roz 100 rupaiya to aise hi kharaz ho jata hai, Kuch to mera maan rakho mere bhai,”. All off and little more of that made me sit with him, and talk, probably for an hour of so. He wanted to be an enginner, Scored 88% in HSC, But now was there, amongst dust , sweat and disappointment,

                        The night life, as exciting it sounds, has more devastating stories. The sex workers, whom most of us consider untouchables, are the ones who make their families churn. They sometimes need some one to talk to, to share stuff, its not always about sex for them. Great friends they make. And those tea-coffee vendors on cycles who kill their sleeps at night, just to make sure they can cash in on those brats who would just set out during nights just for fun or just cause they can’t sleep. I met one such guy. His first day, rather night, on the streets of Mumbai,  and me the first customer. Talking in half broken hindi, the tamilian guy was doing as much as he could, just to impress me and my friends, and the way he treated the 50 rupee note we gave him, made me realize…..  Life ain’t that easy for everyone.

                        And last but not the least, the train travel again. Eunuch, or lets say Hijras, as you my recognize  them. They come , the ask for money , they bless if you give, curse if you don’t. After that, no idea, I would tell you. After that they meet the cops. Those cops, who are bound to protect us , they and everyone> and what do they do, they literally snatch away their money, and just hurl abuses and then walk away. Behind, she cries, and no one listens. Then as the train moves, I see her wiping the tears with the far enf of her pallu, getting hold of the next guy she gets, pinching him, clapping, and trying to get whatever she can, Even a penny would do. Even she would have some one to look after. Every one has their own Burdens.

                        Hope, as I said. Its all about survival for all of them, while we sit and talk about the ride on the sea link, or the burgers at KFC. And I always  thought everything was fair in life, like two sides of a coin. Seems like it isn’t that way though.